I AM OH, SO SAD

So very sad..

So, A lot of shit just happened between me and my mother, and I said a few things I regret, and acted a certain way that I honestly don't want to see again from myself.


I wont bore you with the whole sob story of what happened, or tell you how depressed I am inside, but I will throw some truths out there that I believe I learned from this whole crazy situation. I believe they're absolute life lessons that if you don't heed, will bite you in the ass in the future.

1. WATCH WHAT YOU SAY AND MORE IMPORTANTLY, HOW YOU SAY IT.

When I was trying to get my point across to my mother, I ended up getting upset that she did not understand me. Instead of thinking of a better way to put it, or even just calling it quits if she refused to see things my way, I lashed out on her and told her "I don't have a mother".Told her she cut off. It's done. Don't ask me to do anything for you.

...I think I really said that to hurt her, but you know in the end, i'm the one who's hurting, because I regret it. I steered the situation in a way it didn't need to go. That's why I advise ALL OF YOU to think about what you say before you say it. It's not always easy to do that, because everyone is human when it comes down to it, but its a practice that has to be done.And it's also about how you say things to people, no one will listen to you if you're all attitude, up in their face, trying to talk over them.That honestly won't get you anywhere, because your point will be lost with all the attitude and yelling, and it will come down more to the point of respect...which brings me to my next point...
     
      2. ALWAYS HAVE RESPECT FOR PEOPLE.


Especially your parents. You will always lose the battle if you choose to not have respect for them.
And even if you hate someones guts, make sure to respect them. You don't have to like them. All humans deserve respect. I will admit, i'm guilty of not respecting a lot of people,because I choose to act like a child, or to "look tough" or something idiotic like that. When I look back on it, I feel terribly stupid. And I feel like it comes to bite me in the ass, because I feel some people don't respect me. *shurg* Karma is a fierce bitch I guess. :/ 
     
     3. DO NOT EXPECT SO MUCH OUT OF PEOPLE.

I feel that this is the BEST realization i've ever made.I really used to look at anime's and  see how much someone would FIGHT for somebody else. How they would never give up, and how they will always respect/love that person no matter what. Sadly, that's not the real world. Don't EVER, no matter what the situation, EXPECT somebody to comfort you or make you happy. Don't Expect a friend/boyfriend/sister/brother/mom/dad/ANYONE to run after you after a heated situation. You have to depend on YOU to and make YOURSELF happy. If they happen to do so, makes sure to keep that person around, cause that's someone with a big heart, but 9 TIMES OUT OF 10 , you wont get that from anyone, period.

And that's it! That's what I learned. those 3 points will take you far if you make the choice to follow them <3. OH AND ONE MORE IMPORTANT POINT.

 If you happen to end up in a fucked up situation like me, where you did not follow ANY of those three points LEARN FROM IT! You can't beat yourself up for ever, like I said before people are humans, and when that happens, its all about repairing and growth of your inner self.Just cheer up when it happens, because you don't want to end up in a dark place.

How Do I cheer myself up after a shitty day you ask?

I TAKE MY DEPRESSED ASS TO FUNNY JUNK DOT COM!!!!
cheers me up everytime :D

GETS ME EVERYTIME XD

Or I watch Regular Show:

LOVIN' IN THE SUMMER TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Thanks again for reading :)